January 10, 2019

Dear Eva, January 10th – the day I said enough’s enough and took you into the ER. I knew in my gut the bruising you were experiencing was NOT NORMAL. It felt like the whole world thought I was crazy, “She’s a kid, they bruise.” I was terrified walking into that hospital that day. I … More January 10, 2019

December 20, 2018

Dear Eva, I feel like such a Grinch. I’ve been moody and unable to get into the real spirit. I put a smile on and, just barley, go through the motions. This was your favorite time of year, you loved all of the lights and decorations. All the treats in your advent calendar, all of … More December 20, 2018

December 3, 2018

Dear Eva, It’s been extremely quiet on here, I know. It’s been a whirlwind month and a bit and it’s really been all I can do to keep my head above water. Your Daddy is on week 5 of 8 weeks of school in Regina. Mommy had to have a procedure done to check on … More December 3, 2018

October 21, 2018

Dear Eva, I’m about to quote The Walking Dead – bear with me for a minute. “I decided who I was going to be, did you?” “I decided, but life decided some things too.” Man, oh man, this resonated with Mama so much tonight. In this life we have so many choices, paths, decisions who … More October 21, 2018

October 17, 2018

Dear Eva, It’s funny how one minute I can be feeling totally fine, enjoying the sunshine with my guard completely down and the next minute I’m dropping a plate on the floor, watching it smash into a million pieces and crying about it. One minute I’m driving home from work, listening to music and the … More October 17, 2018

October 15, 2018

Dear Eva, Hey Sweet Cheeks! It’s been a whirl wind week. I miss you like crazy. I love you like crazy. I want you back like crazy. Friday was your birthday. It’s funny because Thursday was a horrible day, Saturday was a horrible day, but Friday was OKAY. I mean not great, but okay. So … More October 15, 2018

October 10, 2018

Dear Eva, Hey Baby Girl. I miss you. I hope you are okay up there. The last while has been long and hard for Mama down here without you. We survived our first Thanksgiving without our Turkey baby and I have no idea how. I think Thanksgiving is the holiday I feared the most, even … More October 10, 2018

September 18, 2018

Dear Eva, Hi Baby Girl. I miss you. I’m oddly relaxed tonight, enjoying some TV time with Daddy. I’ve been thinking a lot lately about your disease and I’ve come to realize that maybe that is the main source of my anxiety the last little while. I think it’s time that I get some of … More September 18, 2018