November 13, 2019

Dear Eva, I miss you so much. I’ve been struggling a lot lately and sitting down to write to you is very long over due. Today was a breaking point for me. I woke up with my fitbit reading my heart rate at over 100 and feeling extremely jittery. It’s been so long since I’ve … More November 13, 2019


Child Loss & Change

Dear Eva, Change. One little word that holds a lot of power over our lives. Lots of times change can be an incredible thing. Change can be happy and exciting. Our lives change for the better often – new jobs, marriage, babies, new friends, new dreams. There are so many positive things about change. Sometimes … More Child Loss & Change

The Loss Dad

Dear Eva, When I submitted my post to Love What Matters I honestly wasn’t sure if it would be posted or what people would think if it was posted. Needless to say, it was posted and the response was amazing. People loved it. People shared it. I had many messages from mom’s all around the … More The Loss Dad

August 1, 2019

Dear Eva, I miss you. I’m so broken. I haven’t written to you in so long and my emotions show it. I’m feeling guilty because I’ve left this blog empty for so long. Mama and Daddy have been going so steady and it feels like I haven’t had a minute to even think about writing. … More August 1, 2019

May 30, 2019

Dear Eva, I miss you. I miss you. I miss you. I’ve been feeling so stuck these past few days. I’ve been snappy and if I’m not snappy, I’m bawling. Not just a few tears. Big full on ugly cry at the drop of a hat. It’s been a struggle to say the least. That … More May 30, 2019

May 13, 2019

Dear Eva, I’m missing you, as always. I’m thinking about you, as always. I’m wishing you were here, as always. Yesterday was hard, as always. I don’t think Mother’s Day will ever get much easier. It’s a hard day for me to process, I think especially because you are my only child. I feel caught … More May 13, 2019

May 1, 2019

Dear Eva, Hey Baby Girl! I miss you! I love you to heaven and back! Grief Journal Prompt #4 – The First Time We Met.The first time we met, your birth story! I think about that day often and I’m not sure why I’ve never written it down. You came into this world in a … More May 1, 2019

April 18, 2019

Dear Eva, Hey sweet girl. You are amazing and I will love you forever. Thank You for coming through to Theresa last weekend. Mama needed that from you more than I realized. It felt like the weight of the world lifted right off my shoulders and I’m working hard at ditching the guilt and finding … More April 18, 2019

April 8, 2019

Dear Eva, I miss you sweet girl! My days have been busy but that doesn’t mean that I ever stop thinking of you. You occupy my mind more than anything else. I love you to Heaven and back sweet Turkey Bird. Keep sending the sunshine, I know it ‘s you, and I always appreciate knowing … More April 8, 2019

April 1, 2019

Dear Eva, Hey sweet baby! I miss you bunches! I’ve been struggling with the blog lately. I pull out the laptop and get ready to write and just stare at the blank screen. I worry that I’m constantly repeating myself with the same grief stuff I always talk about. I worry that it’s “too much” … More April 1, 2019