October 17, 2018

Dear Eva, It’s funny how one minute I can be feeling totally fine, enjoying the sunshine with my guard completely down and the next minute I’m dropping a plate on the floor, watching it smash into a million pieces and crying about it. One minute I’m driving home from work, listening to music and the … More October 17, 2018

October 15, 2018

Dear Eva, Hey Sweet Cheeks! It’s been a whirl wind week. I miss you like crazy. I love you like crazy. I want you back like crazy. Friday was your birthday. It’s funny because Thursday was a horrible day, Saturday was a horrible day, but Friday was OKAY. I mean not great, but okay. So … More October 15, 2018

October 10, 2018

Dear Eva, Hey Baby Girl. I miss you. I hope you are okay up there. The last while has been long and hard for Mama down here without you. We survived our first Thanksgiving without our Turkey baby and I have no idea how. I think Thanksgiving is the holiday I feared the most, even … More October 10, 2018

September 18, 2018

Dear Eva, Hi Baby Girl. I miss you. I’m oddly relaxed tonight, enjoying some TV time with Daddy. I’ve been thinking a lot lately about your disease and I’ve come to realize that maybe that is the main source of my anxiety the last little while. I think it’s time that I get some of … More September 18, 2018

September 17, 2018

Dear Eva, I’ve been MIA again – I know. I feel that I’ve regressed a bit in my grief and am feeling like anything I write here will be monotonous and that I’ll just be beating a dead horse. I’m feeling stuck and isolated. The anxiety has been all consuming again for the last few … More September 17, 2018