Love, Aunty Chanda

My Dearest Eva,

Your Mama asked me to write to you, I don’t know where to start…..

I will start with I MISS YOU SOOOOOO MUCH BABY GIRL!!!!  I cry for you every single day, sometimes all day.

I am also so angry!  I don’t understand why you had to go, why did it have to be you?  They say all things for a reason, well I don’t see any darn reason in this.  You should be here, you should be teaching Amie things.  You were so smart!  You could have been anything you wanted in this whole world.  So, WHY YOU!

I talk to your Mama every day.  She is so strong girlie!  She of course is struggling very much but she is so strong.  She helps me, she talks to me about you.  I learn something new about you almost every day.  That is also tough though, I should have been able to learn myself, we should have had many more times to hang out together.

Amie is so much like you, she even has that crazy giggle going on these days.  But, I am pretty sure you are teaching her, aren’t you!!  She doesn’t understand what happened, and she won’t for many more years.  I will forever see her go through milestones and think of you.  I will try to smile and see you there, but man I really wish you could be!!

Emma is doing ok too.  She is so sad you are gone.  And it hurts her so much that she didn’t get to say good bye.  It hurts us all!!  But she loves you very much, as I know you did her too!

Papa and Nana are doing ok.  We all are struggling big time, but slowly we are all trying to deal.  Papa had an accident the other day.  You were there, weren’t you my girl!  You saved his life.

I know you watch over all of us, every single day.   And I appreciate that so very much!  You are the perfect little angel to keep us safe.

I am going to get a tattoo in your memory soon.  I just know it is going to be bright and beautiful just like you!  I hope you like it!!

I know you come around the house sometimes.  Please keep coming, Auntie loves your visits!  And please keep coming to see my girls.  They love you very much too!

I guess that is all I have to tell you for now.  Except, I LOVE YOU, I MISS YOU, I WISH YOU WERE HERE!

Until we meet again Auntie’s Girl, I love you so much!

Auntie Chanda

 

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